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Monday, December 21, 2009
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#-It comes around
Why am I falling again? I hate sin, but the flesh is weak, oh so weak.
Forgive me Father. Cleanse me from all unrighteousness. And keep me under the shelter of Your wings. Please.
I am nothing without You.
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Tuesday, March 03, 2009
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#-I'm 22.
Birthday week. A good week indeed. A 2 day break from school is always welcomed, but when it coincides with my birthday, even better. Here's what I got up to.
23Feb09 (Mon)
School. Full day actually, so nothing really much happened. Yishi got me 2 cakes from hummingbird bakery. A little too sweet for my tastes, but it was good nonethelss. During the night, my housemates brough in a cake for me, which was really sweet of them. I really didn't expect it at all.
24Feb09 (Tue)
Here is was. I had a short PBL session in the morning, and then basically studied the rest of the day, until dinner time when I met Debra for dinner at Sway, some semi-posh restaurant. Twas a nice dinner, and generally a good time to talk. I had crab and fish risotto, which was not bad, and Debra had some salmon thingee.
In the middle of the day Michelle came over and brought along another cake from Patisserie Valerie. Nice cake.
And then at 2115 I went for swing while Debra went back for her reheasals for Beautyworld. Florrine and Xinwei called in the middle of swing to wish me a happy birthday. Had a nice talk with them. I also found out that some of the swing people went for tea after swing so I followed them.
25Feb09 (Wed)
This was a free day, and I did some work in the day time, and then in the evening went for SWOT. After SWOT, I went with Shoujie to Ronnie Scot's jam, and my goodness was I impressed!
The jam started about 2300 with the house band playing a set first. This was not bad at all, quite standard stuff with the pianist and drummer doing some good interaction. After the first set, the jammers came on.
First change of drummer was this guy who was WICKED! He was taking every opportunity and opening the pianist threw at him, and responding with many sick synchopation and beats. I have to say the way he places all his accents were really exciting, and kept me really glued listening to them. The bassist missed most of the openings, which I thought was really sad, because he had fantastic solos, but argh, such a waste! Then some Russian saxophonist came on, and he looked abit odd. I think people were skeptical if he could play well. In fact, when he started his first tune, he was slightly out of tune, ala Ornette Coleman, and everyone in the audience was looking around a bit concerned. But then when he went into the solo, he showed that he could hold himself well. In fact, Shoujie found out after that he was really into free jazz, which I thought was really cool, except he didn't respond as well to the band compared to the drummer, so I find it difficult to believe he plays free jazz very well. But otherwise, he was quite an exciting player.
And then a new bassist stepped up, who was just as good, and in fact took a few more openings than the house bassist, but still not as much as I would've liked. There was another 2 pianists as well, who were not bad at all. All of them could hold their own solos really well, not complaints there, it's just the interaction I wasn't as impressed with. Another bassist and a couple of drummers then took the stage, and they weren't anything particularly exciting. In the end a violinst came up, and she couldn't do it well at all. Anyway, I went off when the violinist played.
Overall, a great night of good music, and I'm rather inspired to go there to jam one day. In terms of band interaction and holding rhythm and walking, I'd be able to compared well to anyone of the bassists there, or actually might be a little more exciting than them. In terms of solo no way I can compare though. Really need to work on this more to jam well.
Got home at 0230.
26Feb09 (Thu)
Woke up late, at 1300 I think. Replied some facebook wallposts, and then during the evening, went for dinner with Joyce, Denise, and Joanna Tan, who was in London. It was a nice time at Pearl Liang at Paddington. It was a nice restaurant, fairly priced and good food.
27Feb09 (Fri)
Had school today. I full day basically, btu at night, I went with Jordan and his brother Justin to Troy bar. MY GOODNESS! I was totally blown away. This wasn't your usual jazz bar. They played fusion and quite heavy beats, and basically jammed on simple progressions. But THE BAND INTERACTION!!! Every single player was into it, the drummer was crazy doing all kinds of synchopation and beats, even going into polyrhythms. The bassist followed really well and they were so tight, even with improvised changes to the rhythm with every other cycle. The keyboardist was using really lush tones, and had sick lines in his improvisation. The sax player also was killer. The guitarist was a Fillipino, and he was smokin! Basically ALL of them were really responding to each other, and I was really impressed with all of them. They were so tight that some of the times the other players would pick up an extended drumroll within 1 beat of it!
Had great chats with Jordan and Justin, and came out of the bar drained from all the energy flowing around. If you want 1 jazz bar to visit, go for Troy bar at Old Street station. You won't be disappointed. Too bad it also starts about 2200-2300, a little too late for my normal days.
28Feb09
Went to Thorpe Park today with Zhongmin and company, and Mingjie. Had a great time on rollercoasters, and a less ncie time on the rides like Vortex, Zodiac and X. Those made me feel really sick...by the end of the day when the park closed I was feeling quite dizzy. We managed to take some really funny pics on the rollercoaster though, and had a good laugh. Met Zhongmin's friends, mostly year1 medics. Met his friend, who was from Singapore, with a tongue & navel piercing, wore blue contact lenses. She's doing communication and psychosocial science at UEL, and besides the fact I think she looks good, I find her interesting.
Didn't join them for the post-park party to celebrate Zhongmin's birthday, but instead went home to take an hour nap, after which I went with Ian and Michelle for a swing event, which was not bad.
01Mar09
Played for church (this is why I didn't join them for the party last night).
02Mar09
School for a full day, then went to watch Beautyworld musical by KCLMSS, to support Debra and Chermaine basically. I shan't review it, but interestingly, my biggest complaint wasn't the singing nor the acting. hah.
Now it's really time to have no-life and study hard. Which means probably no blog for a long time.
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Saturday, December 20, 2008
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#-Update 20 Dec 08
Dear All,
It’s been more than 6 months since I last wrote an update to you, and now that term has finally ended it seems a good thing to get round to writing another update to let you know what has been going on in my life. I trust you have been well and that God has been keeping you safe in the current financial status.
Since the last update, which was when the school year ended in about June 08, the 3 month summer holiday had been a good one for me. I took a short trip with some friends to Sipadan in Sabah, Malaysia to learn how to scuba dive. It was a great trip, and a nice skill to learn. For me, it was especially exciting to experience from a new perspective the beauty of God’s creation. It is quite a bit different from scuba diving and watching an underwater documentary, and the pictures which I took shows some of the things which I saw under the sea. It was a relaxing and refreshing time to pause and take a break from the year of hard work and study in school.
Also during the holidays, I took a 2 week trip to Khon Kaen, Thailand for a Project with Singapore Medical Society London. Khon Kaen is one of the poorest regions of Thailand, situated in the Northeast of the country. A team of 18 people, mostly medical students plus a doctor, stayed in a village, taught the residents about diabetes, hypertension, first aid and basic hygiene. We also brought resources and supplies for them. This was also a good experience to live in the same conditions as the villagers, using buckets of rain water to shower, cooking food for 20 people at a time, trying to get over the language barrier (with help from students from Khon Kaen University. In the last 2 days, I arranged to meet up with my godsister Elizabeth and her team from Gerald Khoo World Harvest foundation. A leader from the trip was with me to see the conditions in the slums in the city, as well as recce for a possible spot to do this project in 2009. We found the conditions in the slums to be worse than the village we went to, and the need for medical and social attention, greater. Therefore, I decided to lead a team in 2009 to both the same village for follow-up, as well as the slums in Khon Kaen city. This time though, we will be focusing our efforts on liver fluke infections, which are worms/parasites that infect the people when they eat raw fish. They have a high association with cholangiocarcinoma, which is one of the top cancers in Thailand. Another leader and I have been planning and getting in touch with the relevant parties for sponsorship, help and advice. The trip will be in July or August 2009.
After enjoying the company of family and friends in Singapore, and some attachments with doctors in Singapore as well, I started year2 medicine in Imperial in Oct08. Since then it’s been going at breakneck speed. The first month of the course was basically lots of lectures, usually up to 6 per day. The topics were stuff like anatomy, pharmacology, neuroscience, more endocrinology. In end Nov08, we started a 4-week long attachment in a hospital. I was posted to Northwick Park Hospital, which is in zone4, Northwest of London. It takes me an hour to get there, and my day started at 0800 everyday. Those 4-weeks proved to be an awesome learning experience. Not only were there dedicated teaching sessions, but I clerked patients, followed and helped with ward rounds, watched and assisted in some surgeries, and saw many patients in outpatient clinics. I was attached to GI/General surgical team, and many of the junior doctors were very kind and keen in teaching, which meant I learnt quite abit about biliary colic, pancreatitis, appendicitis, volvulus, and other GI conditions. It was great to finally link up what we’ve learnt in lectures to real clinical work. It was a good chance to get to know the life of the doctor, especially all the stupid paperwork involved, as well as learning from some consultants who are renowned in whole of UK. I also concluded during my 4 weeks there, that the NHS isn’t a very efficient system. It may actually deter me from working in London after I qualify.
During the attachment, I also managed to get the people working in Microbiology there to teach me about diagnosis of liver flukes and other parasites in preparation for Project Khon Kaen 09. I will be going there next Tuesday to learn. Not only did I get to observe many aspects in Northwick Park Hospital, but I also got several chances to observe the procedures, clinics and surgeries in St Marks’ Hospital right beside, which is a private hospital specialising in colorectal work. It was quite different from Northwick Park, and I enjoyed the little time I got to spend there.
On to the music side of things. I have been less involved in Imperial College Big Band this year. Mostly because I have been terribly busy, but also because I don’t enjoy it as much as playing in a combo. Also because the main activity they talk about is pubbing, which is not something I enjoy very much. There is hardly any growth as a band because its all written charts and also because everything they play has the dynamics fff. Let’s just say I prefer to keep my ears intact.
Sir Real Jazz has been doing quite a number of gigs this term, and I have managed to get a fair amount of pocket money from those. With that money, I purchase a huge amplifier for home use, a Gallien Kruger 2X10 goldline cabinet, used with my Acoustic Image head. I finally can hear the basslines of my music clearly.
I joined another group for a short while. I thought I might as well get as many opportunities to play for some extra money, but turned out this group wasn’t even being paid for their gigs, and they were mainly doing pop-ish acoustic stuff, which I didn’t particularly enjoy much, so that was very much short-lived.
With All Souls Orchestra, I traveled with them to The Sage, Gateshead, a beautiful concert venue in Newcastle. We played 2 sold-out shows there, and I met a couple of jazz musicians in the orchestra as well. The journey to and fro was long, but it was fun to get to know more people in the orchestra who love God the same music I love.
Right before I came to London this term, I also played with my brother and 2 friends, Prakesh and Boon Chye in Esplanade for the Formula 1 Singapore Grand Prix. That was a great opportunity for my brother and I. It was a real enjoyable time playing and talking with the band.
Talking about music, I also set up a music page on Facebook so that friends and other people can listen to some of my music, and find out about what has been going on withmy music. You can visit the page here: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Mark-Tan/37438266261
Do become a fan to get updates about my music.
Now that it’s the holidays, Christmas is around the corner. It will be my first Christmas overseas, and I don’t think I have much planned except church. I will be visiting hospital a couple of times to get in on practicing scrubbing and learn more. I probably will be visiting some friends in Oxford and Cambridge as well. My original plan was to go to France, but I think I might not actually do it, since I have noone to go with, and because I really have to study the work we did last term.
So lastly, but most importantly, please pray for a couple of things as the year comes to a close and a new year starts. Please pray for Project Khon Kaen 2009. Pray that things will be sorted swiftly and planning will be easy and efficient. Pray for generous sponsors and enthusiastic participants. Pray for my studies especially as well. That I’ll be able to learn and absorb as much as possible, and that it will all stick in my brain. This is also along with discipline to hammer the facts into my head in the first place. For the new year, pray for protection, good health and determination for the rest of the school year, and that I will be a channel for God’s saving grace in school.
Before I end, I would like to wish all of you a very blessed Christmas and a great festive holidays to spend with friends and family. Maybe God continue to bless you and keep you. And do tell me how to pray for you as well.
In His Love,
Mark
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Wednesday, November 19, 2008
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#-Lots of happenings
I haven't been here for over a month! I wonder to myself if it's just busy-ness, or if I'm avoiding writing down what I'm up to, or just plain laziness. Perhaps it's all 3, after all, year2 really is crazy, and my music side is starting to busy up, plus I'm getting into the swing of the swing scene too. So besides having lessons from 9-5 almost everyday, I have swing on Tuesdays, Sir Real practice on Wednesdays, Big Band on Thursdays. And then I'm scheduled for playing for church more this year as well, which is great.
My friend said, my life sounds full. And full it is, and I'm loving it. In the first week of school, I already had about 3 gigs for Sir Real, which was good, and which means I get extra pocket money. Then again, I used it all up to buy a huge Gallien Kruger Goldline cabinet, 200W, 2X10" Goldline cones, driven by the 400W Acoustic Image head. Weight is 35kg. It is A MONSTER! But sounds oh so good. The bass finally comes out so clear, and because it has a natural bass boost to it, I even have to turn it down on the Acoustic Image head. All that for 140pounds. I reckon it was a good deal, but I also realise after buying that, that I still don't have an amp to carry around for gigs. I think I'll just wait and see what pops up. I'm eyeing either the Phil Jones Flight Case Combo, or the Mark Bass 2X10 traveller cab with the Acoustic Image head. I got no money though.
And then Debra and I ended our relationship, well quite a long while ago from this date. It was at least a month ago, the 2nd week of school actually. The problem now is that, although I'm over her and can think of her as the friend like before, but I somehow don't know what to say or talk when I see her. Granted I don't even see her often at all, because of my packed schedule, and I hardly even logon to MSN these days either. But I really don't know what to talk about. She says she wants me to be the friend before, to help her be the best that she can be, but I don't want to scold her or whatever.
The previous weekend I went with All Souls Orchestra to Newcastle, or more precisely, The Sage, Gateshead, to play for Prom Praise Northeast. It was a great trip, met many new people and some jazzers even. 2 sold out shows, matinee and evening, and then played at the local churches on Sunday morning, had lunch with them and then caught the train back. Unfortunately, our scheduled train was cancelled so we had to squeeze on the previous one, which meant that our booked seats weren't really in use, so we had to stand for almost 4 hours. Then again, I got to talk to a couple of the musicians, especially a jazz singer who's studying classical singing in RAM. Cool stuff. Anyway, The Sage is a beautiful place. It had a full glass exterior, in the form of a wave, and it was close to the Gateshead Millennium bridge, which is a ingenious piece of construction. It needed to be the same clearance as the old bridge to allow ships to pass under, but the banks there were much lower. So they solved the problem by having a semi-circular bridge, with another semi-circular counter-weight at a 45degree angle. When ships need to pass under, the machinery rotates the bridge and it forms a big arch which has the same clearance height as the old bridge. Brilliant.
Apparently, Big Band doesn't want me to play for the competition anymore. I seriously think there is some racist issue going on man. Firstly, the conductor decides he doesn't want double bass to play for the 3 charts. Understandable for 2 of the charts, but still rather odd that someone would prefer bass guitar to upright for big band. Ok no problem, so chairperson assumed I can't play bass guitar, which is seriously a lame assumption. So I met him, told him I can play bass guitar as well, so I decided to do the easiest chart, so I don't have to work much. And then, when I follow the chart exactly, the section leader of rhythm says it sounds odd and thinks I'm playing wrongly. Mind you I played exactly as written. So in the end he kept looking at my score and realised that I was playing correctly. So even though he at first was a little hesitant to let me play a chart that I had never played before, he said ok in the end. And then now the conductor decides he outright doesn't want me to play. Seriously, what the heck?! The worse part; so he gets the new bassist to play all the charts. Sure he's a great bassist, but it's also his 1st or 2nd time playing all the charts, at most. So what's the matter? Chinese boy can't play bass?! Come to think of it, I am the only asian in the main big band. Maybe they have some subconscious thing that Chinese can't play jazz. So ok I get to slack, but WHAT A WASTE OF TIME! Just tell me in the start that you don't want me to play then. Somehow I'm coming not to like the Big Band people that much anymore.
Meanwhile, Sir Real is making some good progress, and now we all really listen to each other, and it really brings the whole band to a new level when we respond to each other. Unfortunately, our pianist is leaving, deciding that he didn't want the commitment of a weekly practice and he had many clashes with the leader. Fair enough, but I'll really miss playing with him. He has such a good ear, and really responds and interacts with the band. And finding and working with a new pianist would mean we have to build up the dynamism again, unless of course any new pianists have the same perception of music, which is unlikely, especially in a science college. I do hope we find a good one, because if the band reverts to the state it was before, I am not going to be happy at all, and there won't be any kick in playing.
I tried my hand with this other pop band outside college. I wanted to just play and earn some more money, and the guy made it sound like he got plenty of gigs, which would mean good money. I didn't care about what genre I was playing. But, it turned out, their gigs are all unpaid, and they are trying to get signed with a record label, which meant that they were going around playing wherever they could. The worse part was that they didn't even have proper scores. I had to make out the chords and structures on the day of the gig. How annoying. Next time remind me to ask about the pay first. Usually the people whose gigs are unpaid are not good, so I shouldn't bother.
In school, we rushed through about 4-5 huge topics this term, all because we have a month of clinicals starting next week. While I look forward to the clinicals, the last month has been crazy! Too many lectures, too much information, too much time in school, too little time to actually absorb the information. So I resorted to really studying every moment I could. It worked, because I just about kept up with work. I summarised most of the information in my 1-page-wonders, so now all I have to do is study from them. Next week, I begin my firm at Northwick Park Hospital, doing GI surgery, and boy am I looking forward to it. Well not so much the getting screwed over by consultants, but the learning experience as a whole will be great I reckon. Moreover, there are quite a few CMF people in Northwick Park Hospital as well, so we can have mini gatherings there, and I heard the teaching there is good, probably because it's a little far out in zone 3 or 4 Northwest. So for the next month I have to travel there everyday. I should actually travel there one day beforehand, but I can't be bothered actually. I'll just leave really early on the first day.
Oh, and back in Singapore, my brother got his name on a paper that is about to be published, which is awesome for his CV! Mum has a new job, and I pray that she is doing well and that she'll continue to be a light there. Dad is still working his HiPoint project, which I reckon would be great, and I hope to help out some when I am back in summer or easter. And, I'm planning to get a 1/4 size double bass made for me, and chuck a Shadow pickup on it, then use it as my primary bass in Singapore. Or, I could also take it here to London, but that might be too much of a hassle. I'll consider though. But the Shadow pickup I tried on my friend's bass the other day was brilliant! It sounded so clean, so good, both on arco and pizz. I couldn't believe it. The tone is a little on the boomy side, but I never heard a double bass pickup sound so clean before. So I'm considering getting that for about 120pounds, and then with a 1/4size proper bass, I could invest in a good condenser microphone to add on at the side. Ooooo exciting!
Because of clinicals next week, we actually have a slack week this week, which feels great after the last month of slogging like a dog. At the same time I have to study and memorise all the stuff I learnt so far, for firms so that I know what I'm actually doing when I get there, and can really benefit from it.
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Wednesday, October 08, 2008
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#-Suddenly a small fish in a big pond.
Ever felt like a small fish in a big pond? I used to usually be the big fish is small Singapore. I have been blessed indeed; one of the best primary and secondary schools, top JC, ABRSM Grade8 in double bass, counted among the few jazz double bassists in Singapore, one of the top swing dancers in the country, all at the age of 21.
Then I came to London. Yesterday I was blown away by the swing dancers here. Well I mean most of them can't dance very well, but when I saw Ron and Simon dance with the jap lady teacher, it was explosive! And then there's Paul Crook doing Balboa, my goodness the way he does it is so smooth. There's just so much more room for me to improve and I wonder if I can be good at Medicine, Music and Dance all at once. With music at least I know I'm almost, if not the only jazz double bassist in college, but then again all the professionals out there are terrific, and still, even with jazz bass I'm not THAT good here.
I really need to improve, and soon.
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Tuesday, October 07, 2008
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#-2 Conclusions
I got 2 conclusions today:
1) I can't play a 5-string bass. Keep hitting wrong strings.
2) I can't sightread more than 3#/b on electric bass.
Why?
Played a Big Band gig on Henry's bass today. The bass had nothing wrong with it, but I was so used to the 4-string at home I kept hitting the wrong strings. Plus the stupid tunes were in keys like Ab or Db, so not only did I play completely wrong strings, but also completely wrong notes. Not to mention the fact that I'm rusty regarding Big Band stuff. So annoying.
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Monday, September 08, 2008
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#-Korean drama = porn
The more "acceptable" an activity is to the world, the more potentially dangerous it may be. I've always known that to be true, bu Debra brought up a very insightful point today. The world and relationships are governed by romanticism these days. No thanks to Korean dramas apparently, that make girls all end up subconsciously wishing their love lives were like those in the dramas, or hollywood films for that matter. Because romanticism is to girls how lust is to boys, therefore, korean dramas are equivalent to porn. The only difference is that the dramas are more acceptable in the eyes of the world, and therefore, a whole lot more insidious. Subconsciously they wish they would end up in a fairy-tale romance when reality is never like that. And when it smacks you hard in the face, then you blame yourself, you blame your partner, you blame God. Oh how the devil has cleverly sugar-coated his plot to make it seem so innocent.
But more than that, this is not limited to Korean dramas, evidently, from all the blatant sex scenes in our prime-time television these days. With that frozen moment of eye-contact and the electric first kiss, everything is centred around personal feeling and gratification, and we all know it doesn't happen that way. So youths these days should steer clear of these shows. They give the excuse of a good plot, when thats all twisted-minds teasing you to watching for another 5 minutes, and another 5 minutes, and another.
Oh how we so easily fall into satan's trap, just by being a couch potato he strikes.
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