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Saturday, July 08, 2006

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#-Romance

Here's a nice passage from L.M. Montgomery's Anne of Avonlea. I found the passage from one of my favorite Christian author's books, Boy Meets Girl from Joshua Harris.

Perhaps, after all, romance did not come into one's life with pomp and blare, like a gay knight riding down. Perhaps it crept to one's side like an old friend through quiet ways. Perhaps it revealed itself in seeming prose, until some sudden shaft of illumination flung athwart its pages betrayed the rhythm and the music. Perhaps...perhaps...love unfolded naturally out of a beautiful friendship, as a golden-hearted rose slipping from its green sheath.

Perhaps everyone is looking for romance. Perhaps I'm afraid of it. Being pushed away is not a good feeling. Nonetheless it is probably for the better that you did it. I have to admit it cut deep. Still I have to apologize that I was so rash, that I was too strong, that I sought too much affection. For that, I seek your forgiveness. But I have to tell you that you were giving me wrong impressions too. Sure, circumstances do not permit anything between us right now, but please realize that you have a part to play as well, for sending out signals, even if you did not intend to. All you wrote on your blog, were those of no value? Do you miss me badly for a moment, and then pull away the next, when you feel I was coming on to you? I guess I shouldn't feel this way, since you've gone through so much. And because I care for you so much, I don't even get upset with you. In fact I've been trying so hard to provide you with support and encouragement. I hope you realize that. I hope you understand that it hurts me so much to see you hurting, to know that you're crying your eyes dry. I'll have to talk to you soon, to apologize in person, and also to make it clear that I have no intentions to start a relationship with you, or more correctly, a courtship (as Joshua Harris puts it). If you read the book, you'll know why. I mean a part of me wants to, and aches, but the better part of me, my reasoning and my discernment, tell me that it's foolish to start a courtship with you, at least not at this point of time. when I said that I will ask you that question again, I meant it. But you'll have to wait a really long time now. Then again, I'm the one who is in agony because of the waiting. Dear girl, I hope you recover soon, so that I can really have a good talk with you, to tell you all this.

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