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Sunday, September 24, 2006

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#-In the light of His glory and grace

I wish I could be interested in you, I really do. But I'm not, not anymore. I guess it's good that nothing happened before, which gave me a chance to really find out more about you and the type of person you are. You're still beautiful to me of course, and not only your appearance but your personality, as my friend aptly put it, has a perservering quality. There are just too many other aspects that I cannot seem to accept. But well I guess it's true what you said, that both of us are just so similar, but yet distinctly different all at the same time, so I realize many of my flaws in you as well.

It's 1AM and I have to wake up early to play for worship in the morning, but this odour of loneliness just will not leave me alone. Although it is not particularly vile, but it is strong enough to annoy me and make me take notice of it.

For all my J1s, ALL THE BEST for the Promos!! All you muggertoads must do well, or at least get promoted. Actually you might as well retain and spend more time with the Jazz Club. haha.

I'm so attracted to you and want to ask you out, but first, I really need to find out if you love my Lord. Then again, it's probably a bad idea to start another relationship. But either way, I still want to get to know you more, because I think that you have that sophistication I find irresistable, but yet have a certain simplicity about you as well, which I really like. As such, I'd love to find out more about you.

Whether you're making a big mistake, I really do not know. I earnestly hope not, but I must admit I am worried. I never did endorse much of your actions previously, and it is no different this time round. There's really nothing much for me to do I guess, after all, we all are hypocrites to a certain extent, even myself. Heck we don't even practice what we preach, it's no wonder other people are disgusted and repelled by Christianity.

Just read GW's blog and it sounds as if he's really in the dump. There seems to be no motivation nor life in his writing lately, that even he acknowledges. Maybe I should talk to him and try to cheer him up, or at least chat with him to let him know I still care about him.

Hope you're doing fine. I know all this seems rather messed up but there is a plan. I'll always be here for you, you know that. There's no point in getting too worked up, but I understand that you need time. Remember to refer back to the Word, because all scripture is God-breathed. Like the beautiful mail you sent me, lean on His chest and take in the comforting scent of our Lord Jesus. Right now I reminisce about the times when I cried out to Him, and when He held me in His embrace, all the things of the world did seem strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace. I know you'll be fine soon, and then you'll look back eventually and see His hand in it all the while.

In comparison with this big world, the human heart is only a small thing. Though the world is so large, it is utterly unable to satisfy this tiny heart. Man's ever-growing soul and its capacities can only be satisfied in the infinite God. As water is restless until it reaches its level, so the soul has not peace until it rests in God.

- With and Without Christ

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