Of all the questions, reservations and doubts, perhaps this is the only one question to ask: Will I be able to love unconditionally? Will I be willing to give my life up?

Until I can answer yes to that, with whatever my human mind can imagine, I'm afraid the limbo has to remain. But it's all for the best, I know it.

God grant me wisdom and guidance, and patience of course. You know me, you know my impulsiveness, you know my impatients and my raging passions. I surrender to You once again, and I give my entire being to You, to Your doing. Make me as Thine own, then the floodgates will fling open wide, and the blessings will flow. Fulfill Your great plans you have for me, dear Father.