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Thursday, May 29, 2008

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#-Does the battle never end?!

When times get stressful, I know I get more and more tempted to sin. This exam isn't any exception. Help me to flee Jesus, especially this period when I am vulnerable, weak. I need Your help, I can't do it by my own strength, I've tried and failed so many times already. Lord I want to live for You alone, please, take these thoughts away, take these temptations away. Send Your angels to guard me, protect me and stay ever closer to me these 2 weeks. I won't let go until You take it away!

Lord I'm tired...I want to rest in You. You know that my spirit is willing, but as always, my flesh is weak. Forgive me for the lust in me, and cleanse me once more, please. Grant me the grace of a deep and true repentance.

Wipe away all these sinful thoughts! I know You can, so please just take it all away, it's just so difficult to live with this history, to fight this battle every single day. Lord, this soldier's armour is battered, he is tired and exhausted. He tries to put on Your armour daily, tries to fight the good fight, tries to take up his cross, tries to follow You. Odds are against him, the world is against him. All around, the enemy takes shots. With Your strength, many of the shots miss, but some puncture the weak spots in his character. Search his heart Lord, and You will find it belongs to You alone, longs to serve You and desires to obey Your commands. It is all he can offer...

Don't want to fall anymore Father. Don't want to fail You, don't want to crucify You over and over again. I know I can't give up, but I'm weary, O LORD am I weary! Don't let me fall anymore Jesus, please. DON'T LET ME FALL!

Exams are coming, stress is mounting. You know I need You more than ever in moments like these. Hide me under Your wings, keep me far from the devil. Don't let them tempt me, don't let me tempt myself.

"Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?" -Psalm56:8

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