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Thursday, August 28, 2008
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#-Worth far more than rubies
For the last week, I've been thinking about matching callings and vocations of partners, and it's given me a fair bit of distress. I know not how a partner with a different vocation will affect my desire to do missions in the future, and obviously one with similar training would be nice to share the passion with and the lingo and everything. So I questioned myself in my current relationship, and I started asking why I wasn't enjoying it very much, and how it seems often that I seem to be mentoring Debra. I also started to consider if it would be better to find someone with similar vocation. And all these thoughts have taken its toll on both our moods and communications.
Fortunately, I have been blessed with someone who truly loves me. About the mentoring, she said that it's both ways, it's just that she doesn't pick at others' flaws as actively as I do. About the calling, although she still doesn't quite know her calling, she's willing to support me in whatever I do. About vocation, the current training may not be an end itself, and she says she has other skills which may be useful in the mission field, which I do not deny.
So in the end, the matter is summarized into 2 choices:
1. If God wants me to be single for the rest of my life and dedicate it fully to missions possibly,
2. God has blessed me with someone who really loves me and can support me in my calling in the future.
It is a choice I cannot make easily, and methinks that the time when I really do make a decision will be when I am really ready for marriage/singlehood. In the meantime, I thank the Lord for blessing me, and giving Debra the patience and wisdom to deal with all these.
I am reminded of the verse in Proverbs31:10 - "a [partner] of noble character who can find? [He/She] is worth far more than rubies."
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